Empty Stroller (April 5, 2017)

Asked God a specific question.

This morning, just as I was waking up, between sleep and awake state, I intentionally asked God about what Denver is offering. I tried to let go of my own biases and beliefs and just get Gods true opinion.

I saw an image of an empty baby stroller in a short distance from me. Then I saw someone pull out a bunch light blue hats and t-shirts that had darker blue lettering on then that said "best chance yet".


Doctrine of Christ (April 2, 2017)

I woke up this morning with an understanding. I knew I had dreamt something but as soon as I tried to remember what I had dreamt, the plot for last nights episode of Doctor Who replayed in my mind. I had to really struggle against it and fight to cast that out and allow space for the dream to return. I gave up on the attempt to overcome and started to pray. I told God I didn't want the plot of a tv show in my mind, I asked Him to remove it and replace it with the dream.

My mind was cleared and the dream came. Below is the best description I can come up with to communicate my dream.

We are to be perfect even as Christ is perfect.

We take the straight and narrow, and there is only the one path, and Christ is the keeper of the gate who employs no servant there. The path IS the Doctrine of Christ. Christ not actually being the name of the person who fills the role, but the type, or prototype of the saved man.

We enter in the straight and narrow, or the Doctrine of Christ, through baptism by water. As we individually accept the sign posts of the path along the way, BoFHG, which I believe is somehow the iniatory portion of the temple, where we became washed clean and sanctified, and we recognize within ourselves the path of the endowment, ever drawing nearer to the mysteries (or veil). When our faith becomes such that we already know, we cannot be kept within the veil - it is parted and we converse with the Lord through the veil.

The fruit that one acquires, that increases daily until our eyes are opened, is love. We lose hate, fear, jealousy. We lose judgement, inequality, and poor among us. We become willing to sacrifice, to bear one another's burdens, to lift the hands that hang down. We gain the pure love of Christ, because He gives it to us, and as we give the love we receive to those within our sphere, we receive more love, until we receive perfect love, that casteth out all fear, even charity.


Rainbow (December 31, 2016)

I had a dream earlier this week that I should have recorded, but failed to do so. I'm going to record it now.

I dreamt that I was back at the ward building in BF. I was walking down the hallway from the primary room towards the sacrament room. I was stopped by KC. She was extraordinarily tall as tall as a giant an extraordinarily thin, I had to crane my neck back as far as it could go to look up at her. She looked down at me and said "I'm going to come by to you later today I'm going to tell you about the rainbow." I responded back to her and said "Oh, I had a dream about this and knew you were going to say this and come by." Though she said nothing back to me she was visibly upset that I had had a dream about it and she walked away. I continued toward the sacrament room when I saw one of my old boyfriends MW. I found it very odd that he would be there as he was an unbelieving person or a non-practicing Christian. He was a Catholic who never went to church. Anyway I made it into the sacrament room and was going to go find a place to sit. The entire room was full and I spotted my husband M. He was sitting and one is in one of the front pews in the dead center. I started to squeeze past the other people sitting in the pew so I could go sit by M, when I saw MW sitting in the pew. He looks like he wanted me to sit by him but I passed him by and he looks surprised that I did so. I went and sat by M. My dad came up to the pulpit at that time and he leaned over the pulpit so far that he was leaning directly into my face and he started to say please pass the baby up for a name and a blessing. I noticed of the people around me started to pass around a small baby and it was then that I realized that the baby was mine in the past of the baby to me so I could pass them up to get a name and a blessing. I was upset because I had no intention of having my baby get a name and a blessing and people were trying to do something with my baby without me being the one to make the decision. Though upset my dad conceded and said well since the baby is premature I guess now's not a good time for a name and a blessing and went and sat down.

It was then time to have the sacrament prayers. I was surprised to see that they had called up Mike Weaver to say the prayers. Also, on the stand, behind all the seats was a shelf on the wall. TK was standing on the shelf wearing a very beautiful dress that seems to have all the colors of the rainbows in it as well as the color gold each color was cut into the shape of either a diamond or a triangle and was made like the coat of many colors that I imagine in my head and it had the colors everywhere and it made me think of the breast plate of Aaron spoken of in the Scriptures. She was holding the skirt out on both sides so that all can see the skirt and walking up and down the shelves so that everyone could see the beautiful dress. MW began to give the sacrament prayers, but instead of saying the prayer he was saying some other scripture verse memorized Word for Word. The person who was in charge of sacrament kept getting mad at MW because he wouldn't say the correct sacrament prayer. Finally, in discussed, he sent MW from the stand and began to make an example out of him how he was a horrible person or whatever because he didn't say the sacrament prayers correctly. I became upset, at that point I ran out of the sacrament room and was running down the hallway that turned into a beautiful courtyard with like curtains billowing in the wind. In the courtyard walking towards me was MS and behind me were a few of the girlfriends that we all knew. She was walking towards and passed me to the girlfriends and that she passed me she said something nice and was asking me about the baby and then him in the blessing. A very passionately responded that I was never going to have my baby given a name and a blessing the dream was over. I woke up.

I've wondered about the significance of the rainbow and what it means. M reminded me that the rainbow represents the covenant made with Noah. That when men begin to remember, when they deign to embrace the truth and look up, that Zion will look downward and tremble with joy.