Lord, My Children!
I despaired because I am a fool and sought diligently that I might be qualified to teach my children that they would not be cast off because of my failings. And because of the reception of the Holy Ghost, I can invite them to ponder upon a few things of eternity God has pierced me with.
Perhaps with my whims, our dreams and visions, we might be saved together. Perhaps I might be an instrument in the Lord's hand as a means of salvation for myself and a few.
I came and sought for a stone, a connection with the Lord. I was impatient, but waited until I found a Urim and Thummim, but not in the way I expected. And if I am diligent, I can take this trickle and make it a fountain.
1. "Seek not to declare my word, but first seek to obtain my word, and then shall your tongue be loosed; then, if you desire, you shall have my Spirit and my word, yea, the power of God unto the convincing of men." (D&C 11:21)
"And the Spirit shall be given unto you by the prayer of faith; and if ye receive not the Spirit ye shall not teach." (D&C 42:14)